Learn to Fly.

Well the good ol' days may not return
And the rocks might melt and the sea may burn

I'm learning to fly, but I ain't got wings
Coming down is the hardest thing

Well some say life will beat you down
Break your heart, steal your crown
So I've started out, for God knows where
I guess I'll know when I get there

I'm learning to fly, around the clouds,
But what goes up must come down

Over my troubles
Over my worries

One day I'll learn to fly
And I'll fly over my worries
I'll fly over my troubles

I'll fly over my troubles
I'll fly over my worries
*The GREAT Tom Petty*

~E

Live with what you have; And make the best of what's to come...

One more before the long weekend...

TELL ME A STORY

"Tell you a story and it starts with time
Moves to how you live, and learn how to die
Another phase in this world that brings death to life
So don't believe in everything you see
Because what you want might not be what you need
Hold your breath, jump with me and we'll survive
Cause you are the song that leads me to the light

Hope is just a ray of what everyone should see
Alone is the street where you found me
Scared of what's behind you
And scared of what's in front
Live with what you have now
And make the best of what's to come

Tell me a story long and true
We aren't what we say
We are what we do
Just pieces of a puzzle to find where we stand just confused
So you are the moon that pulls me through the night

Hope is just a ray of what everyone should see
Alone is the street where you found me
Scared of what's behind you
And scared of what's in front
Live with what you have now
And make the best of what's to come

Live with what you have
And make the best of what's to come

Hope is just a ray of what everyone should see
Alone is the street where you found me
Scared of what's behind you
And scared of what's in front
Live with what you have now
And make the best of what's to come

So you are the sun that leads me,
You are the moon that pulls me,
You are the light that leads me,
You are the moon that pulls me."

 

Phillip Phillips

 

ILY

~E

When life leaves you high and dry...

I have become an overnight Phillip Phillips FAN...uber fan maybe.  Yes, he sounds a lot like one of our favs Dave Matthews, but there is not a bad song...in fact they are all really good...on his album, and I even downloaded a few covers from his time on American Idol and they are fantastic.  As a Dave lover I'd heard about him from his time on Idol but we didn't watch his season.  I liked his first "coming out" song, Home, and how he has a new song released from his album Gone, Gone, Gone that I LOVE, so I downloaded the full album and I am in uber fan mode.  Ya, ya he already sounds like one of my fav artists but his songs and lyrics are really good...I guess in light of things going on I've been posting lots of quotes and lyrics lately - I go to music when I need a pick me up (I get my love of music from Dad and sorry Mum but unfortunately my musical non-talent from Mum)...and some good lyrics and jams...

GONE, GONE, GONE

"When life leaves you high and dry
I'll be at your door tonight
If you need help, if you need help
I'll shut down the city lights,
I'll lie, cheat, I'll beg and bribe
To make you well, to make you well

When enemies are at your door
I'll carry you away from war
If you need help, if you need help
Your hope dangling by a string
I'll share in your suffering
To make you well, to make you well

Give me reasons to believe
That you would do the same for me

And I would do it for you, for you
Baby, I'm not moving on
I love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You would never sleep alone
I love you long after you're gone
And long after you're gone, gone, gone.

When you fall like a statue
I'm gon' be there to catch you
Put you on your feet, you on your feet
And if your well is empty
Not a thing will prevent me
Tell me what you need, what do you need

I surrender honestly
You've always done the same for me

So I would do it for you, for you.
Baby, I'm not moving on
I love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You would never sleep alone.
I love you long after you're gone
And long after you're gone gone gone.

You're my back bone,
You're my cornerstone
You're my crutch when my legs stop moving
You're my head start,
You're my rugged heart
You're the pulse that I've always needed
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating
Like a drum my heart never stops beating

For you, for you
Baby I'm not moving on
I love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You would never sleep alone
I love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
Baby I'm not moving on,
I love you long after you're gone.
For you, for you.
You would never sleep alone.
I love you long, long after you're gone.

Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating
Like a drum, baby, don't stop beating
Like a drum my heart never stops beating for you

And long after you're gone, gone, gone.
I love you long after you're gone gone, gone."

ily always
~E 

FAITH

John Hiatt, Have a Little Faith:

When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Just let my love throw a spark
And have a little faith in me

And when the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try
And have a little faith in me
And

Have a little faith in me

When your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here darlin'
From a whisper start
To have a little faith in me

And when your back's against the wall
Just turn around and you will see
I will catch, I will catch your fall baby
Just have a little faith in me

Well, I've been loving you for such a long time
Expecting nothing in return
Just for you to have a little faith in me
You see time, time is our friend
'Cause for us there is no end
And all you gotta do is have a little faith in me
I said I will hold you up, I will hold you up
Your love gives me strength enough
So have a little faith in me

~E

The love of a pet...

I know some people aren't "animal people" or "pet lovers" but to me, I cannot comprehend that.  I am such a deep animal lover.  In the Pet Cancer Support Group on Facebook someone wrote recently about her recently passed pup..."You have forever awakened a part of my soul and taught me how to truly and deeply love...and I will never be the same."  I truly believe that loving an animal is like no other love, it is unconditional no matter what and my wish would be that everyone in the world could experience that feeling.  It is beyond incredible. 

I still cannot make sense of this diagnosis.  I try to find a reason in everything that happens, as I do truly believe that everything happens for a reason.  I know Hope came into my life for a reason and we needed each other; and now I know that reason was to prepare me for Hurley's diagnosis and battle with cancer.  But I cannot understand why MY baby had to be diagnosed.  The only sense I can gather right now is that I need to learn to live in the moment, live for the day, and stay in the present - that is the best gift I can give him and myself. 

 

When I am having a particularly hard time, I find a lot of comfort in music.  I get that from my Dad.   

This is not from a song, but from Bubba Stewart, a Motorcross/Supercross racer the hub and I follow:
"Forget yesterday - it has already forgotten you. Don't sweat tomorrow - you haven't even met. Instead, only focus on what u can.... today."

Also not from a song:
"God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen." 
- Reinhold Niebuhr

"I am not asking salvation from you;
I'm just asking to be saved for awhile;
In a timeless search for love that might work;
Still we're already paying the price."
- Stevie Nicks, Secret Love

"Keep the earth below my feet;
For all my sweat, my blood runs weak;
Let me learn from where I have been;
Keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn;
Keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn.
Just give me time;
You know your desires and mine;
So wrap my flesh in ivy and in twine;
For I must be well."
- Mumford & Sons, Below My Feet

"Not talkin' 'bout a year;
No not three or four;
I don't want that kind of forever;
In my life anymore;
Forever always seems;
to be around when it begins;
but forever never seems;
to be around when it ends;
So give me your forever;
Please your forever;
Not a day less will do From you.

People spend so much time;
Every single day;
Runnin' 'round all over town;
Givin' their forever away;
But no not me;
I won't let my forever roam;
and now I hope I can find;
my forever a home;
So give me your forever;
Please your forever;
Not a day less will do;
From you."
- Ben Harper, Forever

"Battered and torn;
still I can see the light;
tattered and worn;
but I must kneel to fight."

"Hope is alive;
while we're apar;t
only tears;
speak from my heart;
break the chains;
that hold us down;
and we shall be;
forever bound."
- Ben Harper, I Shall Not Walk Alone

"What started as a whisper;
Slowly turned in to a scream.
Searching for an answer;
Where the question is unseen.

Amen omen,can I find the place within;
To live my life without you?

Amen omen, can I find the strength within."

- Ben Harper, Amen Omen

"I will not be broken;
I won't be turned away;
When it's too cold to breathe;
and too dark to pray;
I will not be broken.

I've come too far to give up;
or to be turned around;
I will not be broken;
I will not go down."
- Ben Harper, I Will Not be Broken

"Nothing is as beautiful;
As when she believes."
- Ben Harper, When She Believes

Kinda corny, sorry!

~E

 

Words to Live by...

So one of the supercross/motorcross racers we like posted something great on Twitter the other day...

Forget yesterday - it has already forgotten you. Don't sweat tomorrow - you haven't even met. Instead, only focus on what u can.... today.

Thought I'd share.

~E

Some Serenity...

So those of you who know me the best know I am not a religious person.  I was raised Catholic but other than weddings or funerals I have not set foot in a church probably since my Confirmation.  But now I have actually been going to Sunday morning masses at a local church (New England Chapel) with my friend.  It is about the least, most non-churchy church there is, and is non-denominational.  It has a live band so the one hour service basically consists of a prayer, a LOT of music, and then a fairly short "lesson" from the pastor. My friend invited me after Hope passed and I took her up on the offer; and have been going together for the last few weeks.

Anyways, I wanted to share the Serenity prayer and hope it sticks with me and gives me some strength for Hurley...

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

~E

Words to live by...

My hubby sent me some good words to live by today, shared by one of our fav athletes, Motorcross/Supercross racer Bubba Stewart...

"FORGET YESTERDAY - IT HAS ALREADY FORGOTTEN YOU.  DON'T SWEAT TOMORROW - YOU HAVEN'T EVEN MET YET.  INSTEAD, ONLY FOCUS ON WHAT YOU CAN...TODAY."

Now if I can only try to live by that...

~E